Best Marriage Proposal EVER

Just a Cowinkidink.... or is it more?

I've discovered something interesting. Whenever there's a subject on my mind, I find myself surrounded by the topic at hand. For instance, I went through a period of feeling as though I should have another baby. Suddenly I was hearing announcements of pregnancies and new births from all sorts of friends and acquaintances. Even my ex husband's new wife is expecting (she's being induced tonight, in fact). This made it much tougher for me because I know that at this point in my life; I simply can't have another child. Physically, sure, but in financial and stability terms, it's just not plausible. That didn't make the feeling lessen by any means, though. So today at lunch, the break room TV was on a movie. Sweet Home Alabama I think it was. It was maybe two or three scenes in and a man was proposing to the main female character. Typically this wouldn't mean anything to me, to see a marriage proposal in a movie. However, my first thought was, "Wow, that's the third marriage proposal I've seen this week." Tuesday I worked at a hockey game and there was a proposal. Last night I worked the Michael Buble' concert, and there was a proposal. And now the movie. I'm sure it's sounds pretty silly to most of you, and I'm not saying I'm putting too much weight on it, but I did find it very curious. You see, recently, marriage has been on my mind. It's been two years since my divorce. I'm dating someone who has literally been (as cheesy as it may sound) everything I've wanted in a significant other and we are swiftly approaching our two year anniversary. We've had some discussion about the 'M' word, and it always ends with neither of us being ready. However, the last talk we had was a little different. Thinking about settling down and getting married (again) doesn't make me cringe anymore. I look at my son and realize I could definitely use some extra support in raising him. It doesn't help that a part of me is bitter towards my ex for getting remarried, and therefore rebuilding his family, only 2 months after our divorce. The problem is that I know for a fact (because he's told me) that my guy is nowhere near being ready to even consider the thought of marriage. And I don't want to pressure him in any way. I know I'm not ready to get married within the next year... but looking five years down the road, I think I'd like to have a more stable family unit. Again, that's not something that's even in his 5 year plan. I honestly don't think it has a timeslot reserved at all. I love him and don't want to make things difficult on our relationship... but I'm not sure how to shake the feeling that I'm going to want to move forward in our relationship before he does... which might just cause one of us to move on completely.