I'm gonna be emo for a second and probably delete this soon, but...
I really miss my dad. He died like a year and a half ago, but damn. Still, at least once a day, I think of something awesome or hilarious and get the urge to call and tell him about it and have to remember, oh right, can't do that anymore, shucks.
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Manuel said, (52 days ago)
I feel you. He's not dead, but he's in jail and I can't really call him either.
Sorry though.
ilikedginger said, (52 days ago)
That's really sad. I had to go months and months in between talking to my dad in the past because my family was all split apart and he decided to seclude himself in the woods and not get a damn telephone.
I was such a daddy's girl though, it's ridiculous. I'd stay home on the weekends from parties and stuff because I wanted to hang out with him. We hung out like we were bffs and battled drunks down by the river and even worked together at the nature park and scared rattlesnakes. He let me keep every dirty dog, kitten, species that I brought home, so long as it wasn't a scrawny ass, douchebag of a boy.
Manuel said, (52 days ago)
I was a daddy's girl too. I'd go with him on his road trips (he was a 18 wheeler semi truck driver). I'd watch Star Trek with him, and always say that he looked like William Shatner.
He gets out of jail next year I think, but his probation won't let him leave Arkansas, I think. I can't though to show him all the new movies, especially Indiana Jones. He's gonna love that they made that last one.
We have our little running joke, we'd try to act all gangster, I'd say something like "you better watch it booyeeeeeee" and he'd come back all gangster like to me "oh yeah giiirrrlll?" (Hard to explain without hearing it) and he tries to still do the same in his letters.
Sorry if I'm rambling, but your thread got me all reminiscent too.
ilikedginger said, (52 days ago)
We had little inside jokes like that, too. Like bringing up how Mexican my grandma looks, because she hates them. Breaking out into the Charleston anytime we passed one of those music playing things at Walmart. Endless Marx Bros quoting.
BLARGH. Why can't boys be more like my dad and sit down and watch some old fucken movies with me?
ilikedginger said, (52 days ago)
We were REALLY poor for a while. He couldn't pass the physical at the factories anymore because he was diabetic and wouldn't go on insulin so we were doing little odd jobs and stuff. We'd be down to our last $10 or something and be like "eh, whatever. Let's go get some burgers!" and live off ramen and bologna sandwiches the rest of the week/month.
bold as love said, (52 days ago)
Not emo at all. My dad died 2 and a half years ago and I relate to much of what you said. You seem like a very strong person. Don't feel bad about thinking about him every day, he'd be glad that you are.
Manuel said, (52 days ago)
My dad would go to the plasma clinic like each week and donate plasma and get $20. We'd then go to the grocery store and buy frozen pizzas. And as a special treat we'd split a Hershey bar...
Oh shit now I'm crying.
lay oale said, (52 days ago)
I love my dad. A couple years ago we almost lost him to a stroke and diabetes, and even then I was a total wreck and I lost a lot of sleep. My sympathies. Do not feel emo, you have a legitimate emotion.
ilikedginger said, (52 days ago)
@manuel, oh man, our dads would have gotten along really well. You said he was a trucker? His best friend was a trucker and was the exact same way.
We'd always get those cheap little Crispino pizzas or whatever they're called.
ilikedginger said, (52 days ago)
@bold, it's such a shame to me. So many girls have really terrible dads, but so far the girls I know that have lost theirs had great ones.
Naturelle Rivera said, (52 days ago)
This makes me sad. I'm sorry, Tiff. Its good you have lots of good memories to hold onto, though.
ilikedginger said, (52 days ago)
Yeah, thankfully. It's weird how much I HATED Oklahoma and wanted to leave, but now I'm glad I was there for a while, so I could hang out before it happened. I can't help thinking that if I just stayed, none of this would have happened, but meh.
Ethan said, (52 days ago)
My dad died in 1989. In some ways, that was awful. It was weird growing up without a dad, from age 9 on. But, to be honest, these days I remember so little of my life before he died, since it was so long ago, that I think it's kind of a blessing he died so soon. I think it would be infinitely harder to have gone through more of my life, and lose him now.
So, I feeeeeelyou.
T.S. Eliot said, (52 days ago)
Aww. I'm sorry Ginger, It's not unreasonable to be upset though.
It's vile vile business losing someone you love and it sucks to be a half orphan at your age. I *really* hate it when people ask about my parents because the answer seems to make them feel so guilty or something. I've taking to lying about it.
ilikedginger said, (52 days ago)
Yeah, it's like that when anyone asks about my parents. I haven't spoken to my mom since my dad's funeral and she lives in Sweden anyway. It kept coming up in job interviews a while back and there would always be that uneasy silence. Maybe the guilt helped me get a job, though.
I usually don't like sharing personal things on the internet, but I'm feeling strangely lonely right now and I don't want to bog down anyone I have to actually look at.
ilikedginger said, (52 days ago)
Well, they see Oklahoma jobs and stuff on my resume, ask me how long I've been out here, ask if my family lives out here, blah blah blah.
ilikedginger said, (52 days ago)
I don't mind. The better they know you ~personally~ the more they'll be likely to hire you, the less likely they will be to fire you. As long as you let them know the right stuff, that is.
The parents politics thread got the gears in my head a'turnin.