I START REHAB AT 3 PM AUGUST 11TH. SEE YOU GUYS LATER!
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daisy half-wit said, (111 days ago)
If I may be so bold, I think I remember seeing something that Consumatrix posted about anorexia?
more pepper! said, (111 days ago)
i hope everything's ok. please don't hesitate to let me know if you need anything.
valkyrie blondhaar said, (111 days ago)
I was just thinking about you the other day, Heather! I'm glad that you're alive, although sounds like you're in a rough bit right now.
Consumatrix said, (110 days ago)
NOT ROUGH SHAPE, REALLY, BUT THANKS FOR THE CONCERN!
THIS SHOULD BE ENTERTAINING!
Consumatrix said, (110 days ago)
I'M GOING TO GO AHEAD AND CALL IT A HIP SIDE-AFFECT.
THERE'S ONE OR TWO PEOPLE HERE THAT ALREADY KNOW WHAT'S UP, BUT FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DON'T, HERE'S A LITTLE HISTORY:
I HAVE VERY LITTLE CARTILAGE FROM THE WAIST DOWN. MY SPINE, KNEECAPS, AND PELVIS ARE ALL ROTATED. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CARTILAGE IN MY FEET WHICH MEANS I BREAK A BONE IN ONE OF MY FEET EVERY SIX MONTHS OR SO. COMPOUND THIS WITH WORKING TWO JOBS, BOTH OF WHICH ARE MOSTLY ON MY FEET, FOR AN AVERAGE OF 10-14 HOURS PER DAY, AND I GENERALLY END UP IN AN ASTRONOMICAL AMOUNT OF PAIN.
TO COMBAT THE PAIN I'VE BEEN EXPERIENCING, I STARTED TAKING PRESCRIPTION DRUGS. A LOT OF THEM.
GENERALLY I'M LOOKING TO LAY OUT A PLAN TO GET OUT OF THIS CYCLE. I TAKE AN AVERAGE OF 140 MG'S OF HYDROCODONE A DAY; FOR YOU LAYMEN, THAT'S 28 VICODIN. PER DAY. BASICALLY I'M TIRED OF KILLING MY LIVER AND ENDING UP SICK FROM WITHDRAWAL ANYTIME I RUN OUT. NOT TO MENTION THESE FUCKING THINGS ARE REALLY EXPENSIVE.
I KNOW SOME OF YOU WILL BE JUDGMENTAL, SO GO AHEAD.
Sven PartyMaan said, (110 days ago)
Oh God. Why would anyone be judgemental about that? It's not your fault that you're in pain and its really really good that you're doing what you can to get out of it.
Consumatrix said, (110 days ago)
EH, NO MATTER WHICH WAY YOU SPIN IT, OPIATE DEPENDENCY IS A TOUCHY TABOO SUBJECT FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE. HENCE, I'M EXPECTING AND PREPARED FOR A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF BACKLASH.
THIS IS REALLY NOT MUCH DIFFERENT FROM BOOTING UP HEROIN. (WHICH IS SOMETHING I HOPE I WON'T HAVE TO RESORT TO IN ORDER TO GET MY FOOT IN THE DOOR TO THIS PROGRAM.) IT'S JUST INGESTED THROUGH A DIFFERENT MEDIUM.
BUT THANKS FOR THE WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT. WE'LL SEE WHAT HAPPENS.
El Indio said, (110 days ago)
hugs
feel like ive "known" you for a while now.
eveything will be ok, i know it.
giu said, (110 days ago)
I love you heather. If you need to scream at someone periodically I'm here.
Dead Air said, (110 days ago)
That sucks. I know what that is like. When I was in the hospital, I was on 4 or 5 different pain killers/ sleeping pills. It sucks to get hooked on something that a doctor ordered you to take. I wish you the best, and I hope you recover sooner than later.
Consumatrix said, (110 days ago)
WELL, THE DOCTOR DIDN'T REALLY ORDER THEM. I GET THEM FROM.. WELL NEVERMIND WHERE I GET THEM FROM, BUT I BUY THEM. THE DOCTOR I HAD PRIOR TO MY CURRENT ONE ACTUALLY PRESCRIBED ME PAINKILLERS. THE ONE I HAVE NOW? WELL.. AS YOU CAN SEE, I HAD TO TAKE THIS ROUTE. AND THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED. IT'S MY OWN FAULT, AND I'LL OWN IT.
what the hell?