Unsent letters or things you will never have the courage to say...
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i hope you're ok. i've looked for you everywhere on the internet over the years, like some kind of stalker, but you aren't anywhere. i found your brother's address and phone number but i never even met him, so i can't exactly call and ask how to get in touch with you. i really just want to know that you're still alive. you used to make me laugh so fucking hard and yeah, ok, i'll admit it: i will probably never stop wanting to see you again and have gut-busting fun times like we used to.
I wrote a big letter to a girl 10 years ago declaring my undying devotion to her. My mom suggested I wait 24 to send it. I never sent it. I'm glad I didn't. It was not well intentioned.
you were my reason for coming back.. the storage unit was just an excuse.
I won't let go if you don't.
In some ways, it bothers me that you will clearly always mean something slightly more to me than I will ever be to you. But in some ways, I'm okay with that. And you're so cute when you're happy.
I actually had a folder of about 10 or so letters I wrote my ex that I never sent during my last months in Springfield. I very recently deleted the folder with all of them in it. When I was writing them, I wanted to think some day we'd read them together. But that ship has long since sailed.
I did this once. Summer of 99. I got my first girlfriend at the end of the summer, but at the beginning of the summer, she had said a few things that utterly shattered me. I couldn't sleep, so I sat up all night, handwriting a 12 page letter to her, and just pouring out my soul. I never sent it, but gave it to a mutual friend for safekeeping. It was perhaps the most therapeutic thing I've ever done. She eventually found out about the letter, but never got to read it.
I hate you just as much as I love you. You will always be my babys daddy and always be a part of my life, as much as I would like that to change. If I could I would take her and leave the country where you could never find us, that is why I wish you were like your father. I know that as long as I have to talk to you and see you that I will never stop wanting to be with you. Thinking about you makes me weep and hurt more than I have ever hurt before. Everything that I have gone through with you shows me that I can't be with you and as long as I keep strong I never will again.
When my high school girlfriend broke up with me I called her all night one night because I was worsied about her.. I never told her I was sorry. I actually haven't spoken to her at all. I often lay up at night thinking about that, and while it was a mistake it only made me a better person. She was also the best I ever had. I wish we weren't so young. I would have liked to have been inside her.
dear dr. __,
you're a complete asshole. i have no idea how you got to be the director of the MHC program at __ University. you are a sexist, racist, arrogant, vengeful narcissist. how dare you take out your conflict with my father on me, you prick? you aren't even all that smart, and you have very little empathy or interpersonal insight. basically, as a mental health professional, you are epic fail. i hope your children grow up to hate you.
oh, and: jesa, how is your name pronounced? jezza, or jessa or what? in any case, i like it.
@strangerbox It is a really fine line between the two. I suppose it is 's' not 'z'
Cute. I know only one other 'Jesa' and she might actually be a 'Jessa' I really like how unique it is
I just like names that I haven't heard a million times before. My daughters name is Dahlia.
oh, that's a great name. makes me think of "the black dahlia" (elizabeth short). i love james ellroy's book about her.
to a source of comedy,
so. . . . you liked me, huh??
wow. after i told you that i was afraid i would fall for you, it turns out you dug me all along?
that's very funny.
is that why you went and banged all our friends instead?
that's hilarious.
seriously funny shit.
.. .just think what could've happened if you weren't scurrred.
. . .AND you're older than me.
I guess it's true, girls don't grow up, they just grow old.

You were my first love and I will never lose that, no matter how many years we go without seeing one another. I miss you terribly and always will. We are so awkward and clumsy together and I find that to be endearing. You really are the epitome of Max Fisher and I find that strangely sexy. Invader Zim will always remind me of you and that night. Because of you I got through a lot in my teenhood and though I have told you before, I am not sure you actually know how much that means to me, how much you mean to me. Hopefully, we can stay forever friends and know that I will always cherish the times I have spent with you, even if it took two hours for our hands to finally clasp.