i am so brimming with negativity this evening, GTI.

wouldn't it be nice if the sheer knowledge that a thought/emotion pattern is irrational were enough to banish it?

Maybe an afternoon nap is to blame.

I don't know - I mean sometimes I wake up all sweaty and it feels like someone is pounding me on the head with his/her fists.

But, yeah - sleep is good, but on occasion the whole sleeping pattern might be disrupted.

My grandma's been in the ICU for a week. My negativity, let me show it to you.

She's somewhat conscious. And it depends on who you are. One of my cousins has Grandma mouth to her, "I love you." Me, I got: "What are you doing here?" or "I have to go to the bathroom" (I'm a terrible lip reader).

Grandma's getting better from the sepsis (which sent her to the ICU), but she's probably got an aggressive lymphoma, so it's not going to be long before she's back in the hospital again.

In any case why are you negative, besides the exes on dating sites?

@le_sacre: I do too, but I can't say that Grandma hasn't lived a long life.

As for the negativity: seeing exes is unexpected situations is always awkward and can lead to these negative feelings of which you speak. Still, you should look at it this way: you've seen him on the dating site, but he's clearly not better off than you are. What would be worse would be seeing pics with him and the new slut–I mean, sweetie on Facebook or some such.

I get why people do destructive things. I also get why people wallow. But you're a wonderful person (at least, so you have seemed to me), and I have no doubt that you'll be able to put the accidental sighting into proper perspective soon.

I kind of hate how my most recent ex just pops in and out of my life and pretends like he's making an effort to be friends. I have stopped wanting to be nice to him on the premise that I don't think a friendship is feasible now. It does kind of make me feel negative, but even more so that I have to put up with him happily dating again. I wish we could all have a cut off button for when we really just need to cut off information.

*hug*

@lady oracle: Last I saw her, she was plenty doped up. They'll be reducing that over the coming days, but she's been on some good shit for the last week.

@le_sacre: My most awkward ex sighting? I'm 17, almost 18. I've told my parents I'm gay via note, and spent the evening at Superion's house (no, it's not what you think). I return home the next day just in time for us to go to an outdoor concert. We park a distance away from the site of the concert, and my mother and I are walking across an extremely narrow bridge when, who should come toward us but my most recent ex (clearly older than 18, natch), and his newest chippie. We say awkward hellos as we squeeze past each other; the bridge was barely wide enough for two across. My mother catches up to me and says, "So, which one of them did you know?"

"The one with brown hair, Mom."

"Oh. *luftpause* The blond was kinda cute."

*sigh* "Yes, Mom, he was."

I know this sounds horrible, but I wish I could rob my grandmother of the ability to talk. she wouldn't ask me about my non-existent boyfriends anymore.

Also, geez your mom really rubbed in that one. Bummer.

(can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em)

I thought that she was referring to your ex's new boyfriend and him being cute. The mom is supposed to say "well, his new boyfriend is hideous anyways" to make you feel better.