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Being single sucks. Spending a lot of time trying to meet new women and hear their stories. I wonder what we'd talk about on dates, because I run through way too much conversation online.

2008-09-19T08:38:38-07:00

Were any of you in New York or DC on 9/11? I was in New Brunswick, NJ - we saw the smoke from the towers for days it seemed like. Nearly all of us had someone who worked in/around the towers and were trying to call them and the phones were a mess.

2008-09-11T01:37:07-07:00

I give up. I'm not smart enough to deal with women.

2008-09-07T02:04:08-07:00

If you're interested in what purportedly influences neo-cons, here's something I wrote on Leo Strauss that's sympathetic

2008-09-03T05:46:08-07:00

I can't watch the RNC. I feel dumber every second it is on.

a collection of right-wing neo-con american imperialist links regarding russia-georgia (seeking balance)

2008-09-02T07:24:52-07:00

She's not crazy about me. I had completely fallen for her. I can't wait, though, for what I think might happen - it really might be the case that other things in life will go well, and if she's not there, then toodles

2008-08-29T09:54:16-07:00

Rereading a poem of mine, thought I'd share with y'all, for "even the tongue needs parsley"

2008-08-18T12:24:24-07:00

I blame old people for the feeling there's not enough money to go around. Can you confirm or deny this? I'm guessing...

2008-08-16T03:13:53-07:00

List something to which you're looking forward this weekend, or this coming week.

2008-08-16T12:03:50-07:00

I loved Woody Allen's earlier stuff, but what happened between 1980 and now?

2008-08-15T03:41:18-07:00

Curious how everyone is doing today. I'm 1) missing someone, hoping she'll contact me, and 2) dealing with really stupid relatives that are driving just more than me crazy.

2008-08-15T01:08:43-07:00

"combat baby come back / how I miss your ranting / do you miss my all time lows" - Metric, "Combat baby"

2008-08-14T04:53:43-07:00

I can't believe I look like a darker Philip Roth

2008-08-13T08:30:36-07:00

List something that has made you happy recently, and something that has made you rather unhappy.

2008-08-13T04:34:21-07:00

In Napa Valley the last few days, singing with a liturgical choir.

2008-08-13T01:26:38-07:00

Distracted.

2008-08-05T10:29:59-07:00

Dear N:

Every day I pray that you realize how much I think about you, how much I want to love you. I also pray that I find newer and better ways of loving you, even as I get ready to let go.

It feels like you've found someone or something. It feels like you're happy.

I'm miserable. I feel like I squandered an opportunity. And yet - I "squandered" it because I was hoping for some success in something. Maybe my website would take off; maybe more people as opposed to the ones I knew already would contact me and let me work with them; maybe more of the dissertation would get done nicely.

I was waiting for anything good to happen in my life that could let me say "hey, I'm doing something with my time that's productive, now let me find you."

I was also waiting to see if you'd make a move. Hahahahahaha I should have known better. You've got plenty of guys all over you, and I can't blame you for that.

I dunno. I'm proud of the poem I wrote you. I truly want to be your best friend so I can love you all the more. Yes, I think of you in that way. But I'm also thinking 10,20,30 years beyond. We've known each other a while now and I still don't feel you're open. And I want you to know you can trust me.

I'm going to stop ranting now and do the things I've been doing. I probably need you a lot more than you need me.

"Fame is a bee. It has a songâ€” It has a stingâ€” Ah, too, it has a wing." (Dickinson)

2008-08-05T05:13:42-07:00

"Soon everybody will ask what became of you / Your heart was dying fast and you didn't know what to do" - DCFC, "Cath"

2008-08-04T07:19:39-07:00

The most difficult thing when having to change links scattered throughout 600 posts is keeping organized. I always knew I was putting a lot into blogging, but this is ridiculous.

2008-08-04T12:59:09-07:00

Hope everyone's doing well! List something good that happened this weekend that will make your week that much more enjoyable.

2008-08-03T06:12:39-07:00